Again Seriously

I give up

I swear its not even worth it

Why do I do this???

Every time I open my mouth about someone new in my life out of excitement they just disappear.

I fuckin quit

Men you are too complicated for me

and Women cry to much

A sexuality here I come........

500 Days of Lyndsey

So I am watching 500 days of Summer

I want that.

It just seems so uncomplicated at least for Summer.

I don't want a boyfriend. I can't handle relationship plus whats the point of them reallly?

To fall in love and get married?? To have companionship???

I don't believe in love.

I don't need a relationship for companionship.

I know it makes me seem like I a hypocrite for wanting all the perks of a relationship but none of the scary heartbreak and titles or officialness of a relationship.

Yes that means it will go nowhere

Yes I know someone will get hurt in the end

Yes I know that person might even be me.

I just cannot handle having my hopes lifted and then smashed to 12 billion pieces again, it really is just too much for me.

I wish I could control how i just put so much hope and faith into one person and just one little thing can ruin it.

I used to be a master of controlling my emotions, I blame Lilly for ruining this. I am not sure if its a good thing or a bad thing but alas it is a thing. I must learn to deal with it.

I should just ask her how to.

Being a chick sucks sometimes.

I refuse to use a legit paragraph

Now how do I express to him that I want this without scaring him away???