I want that.
It just seems so uncomplicated at least for Summer.
I don't want a boyfriend. I can't handle relationship plus whats the point of them reallly?
To fall in love and get married?? To have companionship???
I don't believe in love.
I don't need a relationship for companionship.
I know it makes me seem like I a hypocrite for wanting all the perks of a relationship but none of the scary heartbreak and titles or officialness of a relationship.
Yes that means it will go nowhere
Yes I know someone will get hurt in the end
Yes I know that person might even be me.
I just cannot handle having my hopes lifted and then smashed to 12 billion pieces again, it really is just too much for me.
I wish I could control how i just put so much hope and faith into one person and just one little thing can ruin it.
I used to be a master of controlling my emotions, I blame Lilly for ruining this. I am not sure if its a good thing or a bad thing but alas it is a thing. I must learn to deal with it.
I should just ask her how to.
Being a chick sucks sometimes.
I refuse to use a legit paragraph
Now how do I express to him that I want this without scaring him away???
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sup mama
i made you human...i know, i'm terrible.
how to deal? i find a nice cocktail of prozac, trazodone and the occasional ativan to do just fine. all coping mechanisms amplified if you mix that with heavy studying, the art of throwing oneself into one thing completely.
stay strong, and stay gold, pony boy. it'll be ok.
sup mama
i made you human...i know, i'm terrible.
how to deal? i find a nice cocktail of prozac, trazodone and the occasional ativan to do just fine. all coping mechanisms amplified if you mix that with heavy studying, the art of throwing oneself into one thing completely.
stay strong, and stay gold, pony boy. it'll be ok.
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